2003-01-17 - 10:51 a.m.
Okay, maybe an update is in order!
But first I want to ask if anyone elst thinks the guy in the Mitsubishi Outlander ad is REALLLLLY cute! (I hope it is the Outlander add) Anyway it is one of those midsized SUV/van thingies, and there is this really cute black guy - I mean SERIOUSLY hot! AND cute! Well, at least to me! - CUTE!
I have decided that I will never get over Pedro. I have removed every reference to him everywhere I have any - except here. The only thing left is an email to my wife, and a couple letters he sent to her, that she keeps in a hard copy file. Also in there are three pictures of him. I found myself pining over those last weekend.
I sometimes wonder if he has any idea how much I miss and still love him. I have long since given up trying to get him to stop ignoring me. He thinks it is for the best - and I'm not sure he's wrong. But that does not make the hurt any less.
But it doesn't hurt as often. I am told that time will heal it. How much time? I sent him an e-mail that had another of my friends emial on it because I was sending it to both. (This was way last summer) He contacted the other friend and told him that he did not think I was a very nice person.
That hurt! That should have been enough, shouldn't it?
Still hurts. Still love him! Still lonely
Update - 2004-06-08 It's been long enough. I still miss him, but ... I have finally moved on - sort of. I have found a wondeful guy. But we will see if he is as special as Pedro, I guess.
